Research for rebuilding

What was the last thing you searched for online? Why were you looking for it?

Early this year I had a problem with my computer. The SSD I was using as my primary drive for housing my Operating System basically died. It was a known issue (not to me, obviously) that caused the failure, and after getting my computer running off an old drive, I found I could still technically SEE the failed drive, I could somewhat navigate through higher level folders, but I couldn’t actually open anything or copy files to other drives.

Unfortunately, that failed drive was where I had a lot of my Twitch streaming assets. (I didn’t realize this until a couple days ago, sadly.)

A few months went by and I decided to buy a new SSD, and a license for Windows 11 (I was still on 10) just to get it over with, and sort of start over. Another month or so later, after getting situated and making sure I had what I wanted at a base level, I decided I might want to take a day off of work to stream because it had been well over a year since the last one. Which brings us to today’s prompt.

The last thing I searched for online was information regarding splitting audio sources in OBS Studio. Normally I had been using a program called Voicemeeter Potato to accomplish this, but after the rebuild I hadn’t decided yet to install it again. It felt like a hassle the last few times I needed to set it up, and I only wanted to isolate Discord voice call audio on the chance that I streamed with friends or family who didn’t want to be heard on my stream.

So far, I think I’ve found an option but I have yet to test it out. If it doesn’t work the way I hoped, I’ll probably just have to go back to Voicemeeter.

So, final word of advice, streaming is more complicated than you might think. If you’re considering doing it, be ready for lots of time spent setting up, adjusting, troubleshooting and problem solving. Even the best guides online can’t account for everything.

Streaming takes a lot

Daily writing prompt
What’s something most people don’t understand?

I feel like the vast majority of people who see people posting dumb shit on social media and YouTube don’t fully understand the effort that can go into content creation.

Now, this also includes the people who decide to post that dumb shit, because a lot of them start off with the mentality “oh that’s easy, I can do that too, and I’ll make millions!” That’s not the case. At all. Granted, the most popular people on social media had to start somewhere but there is also the element of luck to consider.

Putting luck aside, the effort that the SUCCESSFUL people on social media and streaming platforms put in is incredible and varies depending on the style of content they’re choosing to create. In my case I can at least talk about streaming since I did that off and on for years as a hobby.

Most people don’t understand the amount of time and effort that gets invested into streaming. You might think it’s as easy as pushing a button to stream to the world and just sit at your desk playing games for a few hours, but there is much more to it than that. Especially if you have any intent to turn it into a “career” of some kind. You need the right equipment/software and know how to use it. You need to understand the target audience. What games do you like? What games do THEY like? What is your style of game play and audience interaction? Are you really good at a particular game, or are you clever/witty/funny? What’s the best time to stream at and can it fit into your schedule? How are you reaching your target audience to let them know you’re live? Are you streaming often enough? Are you limiting yourself to just streaming on a single platform or are you branching out somehow? What are the current trends in gaming? How do you get ahead of everyone and not feel like you’re riding on the coattails of big streamers who are nearing the end of their time interested in a game or genre? Boiling it all down into a singular question “How do you go from pushing the Live button to making it into a career?”

More and more questions your should be asking yourself the further you go down that rabbit hole. You can’t just record yourself doing something silly or dumb and expect to be famous the next day. People who experience that are incredibly lucky, and chances are it’s a flash in the pan kind of moment and it’ll never happen again. You can increase your odds of success by answering the questions I asked above and putting in the effort, but even then, it isn’t a guarantee.

If you want to break it down into something quantifiable like making a living then you can look into the numbers that are out there, but I can at least provide a hypothetical example for you to chew on.

on Twitch a Tier 1 sub costs a user US$4.99 before taxes. The streamer receives a 50% cut of that. Using nice even numbers that puts it US$2.50. If you were lucky enough to live in a part of the country where the cost of living was cheap, and you had no debts, and you could live off US$50,000 per year, what does that equate to in Twitch subs? That’s 20,000 subs. I don’t have the actual Follower to Subscriber conversion percentages at hand as I’m writing this, but if you were fortunate enough to have 20% of your followers convert to subs, you would need 100,000 followers on Twitch. Let me share a tweet with you all to offer some perspective. CommanderRoot shares a lot of fascinating statistics, and this tweet of theirs from December of 2020 likely still holds some truth to it in 2024. https://x.com/CommanderRoot/status/1336488690986717184

By the end of 2020 less than 4,000 streamers on the entire Twitch platform had greater than 100,000 followers. There are roughly 7,000,000 streamers on Twitch today in 2024, so assuming the numbers haven’t changed drastically between then and now we can do some more math. Using nice even numbers, if my math is right, that means approximately 0.06% of streamers on the entire platform meet the completely hypothetical criteria I set before. (Personally, I’d say the criteria are very optimistic compared to whatever the real numbers are.)

This is why I say most people don’t understand the effort that goes into streaming. If you want this to be a career and you have nothing else going for you, if you want to keep trying, then maybe someday you’ll get up there, but it’s going to take a TREMENDOUS amount of time and effort that you’re not going to get back, and this is all just in streaming on Twitch. At the core of all of this, you can figure out the basic idea and apply it to other forms of content creation, like writing. Follow the questions, follow the numbers, get your answer. No matter what you’re doing, do you understand it enough to know where to aim yourself?

Failure is the name of the game

How has a failure, or apparent failure, set you up for later success?

I glanced at this prompt as I was getting ready for work this morning and used my short “meditative morning commute” to let my thoughts build themselves around the question.

FromSoftware has built up a reputation for making difficult games, however, the reality is that their games don’t follow or utilize many standard/common game design elements that the majority of players are used to. This made for the eventual creation of the “Soulsborne” genre of games. Brutally difficult for beginners, but exceedingly rewarding with that feeling of accomplishment when you make progress and beat a seemingly insurmountable boss.

Their game Elden Ring is no exception. In fact, it dials it up a notch!

You have the potential to build your character for any play style you choose (and yet you will invariably get your ass kicked at some point.) I always liked doing  dexterity builds, using light weapons for quick attacks and being able to dodge out of the way, so that’s where I started my character build. I ended up layering in magic quite a bit not long after starting.

Being a dexterity and magic focused build, my character was squishy. Not a lot of defense or health so most everything, not just bosses, could stagger or kill me in one or two hits. It took a while to get used to the timings of everything, dying over and over again, but eventually I did.

Every time I died, every failure, became a chance to try something different. Charging in and catching the enemies off guard? Checked. Sneaking in and pulling off a backstab? Tried. Attacking with magic from a distance? Sometimes a good start. Learning the parry timings? That eventually became paramount to my build. It took a lot of experimenting, learning different magics, finding and trying different weapons and shields over the course of more than a hundred hours just to get through the game.

There was one particular “hidden” boss that I got really stubborn about wanting to beat. I didn’t keep an exact count, but I probably died 60-80 times until I finally nailed down the parry timings and learned the distances I needed to work within to control the actions of the boss so that I could make it through the fight. Amazingly, I did it without a scratch in the last attempt, AND I have it recorded! If you’re curious you can check it out on my YouTube channel that I never really used.

Two or three hours of failed attempts, dying over and over again, boiled down to a three minute fight. The feeling of satisfaction at beating it was incredible!

Meeting Destiny

Who is the most famous or infamous person you have ever met?

I’d wager many people who read my blog won’t know who this is, but I’m going more towards the “infamous” route by sharing that I ran into the streamer Destiny at TwitchCon 2019.

My roommate and I were walking around the convention and ended up in the “Meet and Greets” area. He got in line and met Kitboga and at some point while we were standing around trying to think of what to do next is when we ran into him. My roommate turned around and said “Oh shit, it’s Destiny!” And sure enough there he was. We shook hands, kept it brief and exchanged a couple words and then we were off.

If you’re wondering why he’s more “infamous” then you should look him up. Very outspoken about his beliefs, loves to debate people. And in general people think he’s kind of an asshole. So, yea, there you have it.

Potential for reinvention

Since I started digging into writing again I’ve been giving myself time to think and research various things related to blogging and writing as a whole. Well, yesterday while I was sitting at work, a thought flashed through my mind.

What if I rebranded my blog?

Why would I do that, and if I did what would that look like?

One of the original reasons for the blog was to serve as a space for the things that came from my streaming on Twitch, so naturally that’s where I sourced the idea for the name and icon. The thing is now, though, that I’m not streaming regularly and I haven’t for probably more than a couple years. Life happened and I didn’t have the same drive for it anymore. I might still do it on rare occasions but it is no longer the pillar of my life it was back then, and I’ll still work on the backlog of requests from my streams because I owe it to my friends and viewers who put them in.

But where do I go from here? I’ll need to think about it more. The whole “rebranding” idea isn’t unreasonable, but if I move forward with it I need it to make sense for the things I’m doing with my time.

Taking on new ventures

What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?

There are two things that I have wished I could do for a living. Streaming full-time, or becoming a full-time writer putting out books for the rest of my life.

Some people look at streamers, particularly the most popular ones that make a lot of money every year, and think “all they’re doing is playing games all day, that’s easy, I could do that!” I was one of those people at first but before I jumped in to try my hand at it, I made sure to connect with smaller streamers (some of them I’m still friends with even after I stopped streaming) because then I could get better interactions and responses to understand what they were doing. I could see the toll it takes on some of them (when they publicly shared that information) and saw the way their faces could light up with a shot of instant gratification when someone would donate/tip or subscribe. The things I’ve learned along the way tell me that if I really wanted to do it, I would have to put in so much more effort than I could muster to try and build everything up, from the equipment to the audience, just to even be able to take the risk of quitting my job and making that leap. So for now, that’s a back burner hobby that I don’t do very often anymore.

So the other option is writing for a living. By comparison, this one is much easier to accomplish long term because it would be less taxing mentally and emotionally. Where streaming would require tons of “on” time for being engaging, writing can be done at my own pace and will have sporadic levels of engagement with other people. That being said, writing DOES cone with its own problems. It’s a much more “solo” enterprise if you consider that when you write you’re doing it by yourself. You’re in your own head, typically without interacting with others. Streaming is kind of the opposite because your head and mind are in a different place, and you have constant interaction with tons of people who are all yelling (typing) to be heard and seen, cheering for your wins and laughing at your digital hardships. With writing you sometimes have to be your own cheerleader. Nobody will laugh or jeer in real time to the things you’re doing. Which is okay! Aside from all of that, the risk with writing is that you can put in so much effort and not see any sort of return for years, if at all, while trying the different publishing routes. I wouldn’t be able to quit my job to shift to writing full-time unless I had landed a publishing deal. Which I obviously don’t have at this time, but maybe someday!

About getting gud

This post is a 50-word writing challenge that was requested of me from my stream as a Channel Point Reward redemption, courtesy of Twitch user darthzelduh.

The pressure is real, but you need the practice. Running, darting back and forth between cover while trying to watch your back. There’s no telling when your opponent will strike. Unseen like a wraith on this digital battlefield.

A flash.

Darkness.

A new notification.

It simply reads “git gud scrub.”

The fallout from the previous Boba Party wars

This post is a 50-word writing challenge that was requested of me from my stream as a Channel Point Reward redemption, courtesy of Twitch user TheBigPapaPanda. It’s finally over.

What happened after their encounter was awful.

The guys had become addicted to the drinks due to their party and darthzelduh got revenge by preventing the guys from getting anymore boba.

They begged and pleaded for more.

The boba shop eventually relented, but on one condition. Make up with darthzelduh.

Darth plots her boba revenge on Dragon and Panda

This post is a 50-word writing challenge that was requested of me from my stream as a Channel Point Reward redemption, courtesy of Twitch user darthzelduh. This is the penultimate chapter in the Boba Wars feud between TheBigPapaPanda and darthzelduh.

Darthzelduh began to walk over to her friends before freezing in place.

She had glanced down to the drinks their hands and realized what was going on.

“I see how it is. Well, enjoy it while it lasts.”

Dragon and Panda have no idea the revenge she is now plotting.

Dragon and Panda plot to not invite Darth to their boba party

This post is a 50-word writing challenge that was requested of me from my stream as a Channel Point Reward redemption, courtesy of Twitch user TheBigPapaPanda. This is chapter 3 of the Boba Wars. Things are about to get dicey!

The boba party continued, and as they finished the first drink, their heightened joy began to fade.
Panda, now briefly free of the fog of boba bliss, reaches for his next drink and sees darthzelduh rounding the corner.
“Psst, hey Dragon,” he whispers “don’t invite darth over here for boba.”