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Lack of Constructive Disagreements

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What public figure do you disagree with the most?
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I don’t want this to turn into a pointless argument or cause anyone to feel attacked in such a way they need to “come at me” to defend themselves, but people need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture.

Politicians, as a whole, are the most public figures in the Unite States of America right now, doesn’t matter which side you’re on. Who do I disagree with most? To be fair, all of them! Again, let me repeat myself, I don’t care which side you’re on for this, because COLLECTIVELY they are all responsible. That’s why we elect them!

Yet, we have a big problem right now. They can’t AGREE with one another. They can’t work together because they’re constantly involved in these bullshit petty arguments and are unable to hold themselves and each other accountable in a manner that is fair FOR THE AMERICAN PEOPLE. Too many competing conflicts of interests that taint priorities. Money changing hands to unduly influence decisions (if you have doubts about this, you can check out OpenSecrets to see where money the money is coming and going.) Too much pride, ego, and selfishness for themselves and no concern for the rest of us. WE elect THEM to REPRESENT US and yet I feel like they have failed. I cannot agree with any of them on their tactics or view points when they refuse to collaborate like decent human beings who see and respect the bigger picture that they represent something more than themselves.

Words to live by

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Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often?

So many people throughout history have provided wise words that hold some measure of “magic” that makes them resonate with others. There are many choices, from simple sentences to long form narratives, that we can choose from. When I first read this prompt I couldn’t decide where I wanted to go with my answer because I have four different sources of inspiration, but I think I’ll share them all with you in the order of most consistent impact they have had on my life.

The first one is simple and incredibly important. One that I think should resonate with everyone, and if you’ve watched the recent Fallout series from Amazon then you’ve heard it. It’s “The Golden Rule”. Do unto others as you would have done unto you. Now, I try to remind myself of this every day, because I believe there is so much truth to those words, however, I take it a step further. I don’t want to let people walk all over me or push me around. I won’t strike first, because I wouldn’t want to be hit, but I won’t let someone who WOULD strike first have that power over me. I won’t show them unnecessary kindness or respect if I can clearly see they mean to harm me or have otherwise ill intent. I show them the kind of treatment I would except for myself if I were in their shoes. I’ll leave it at that and let you all mull it over.

The second one is just as short and simple, if a slight bit fanciful. It comes from the game Tales of Symphonia, spoken by the character Kratos. Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality. I don’t necessarily remind myself of this day in and day out like The Golden Rule, but I like to remind myself of this when I feel like I need to take a leap of faith. It falls in the same realm as “nothing ventured, nothing gained” and all the other phrases that sound similar.

The third and fourth ones I’ll lump together more so because they’re too long to contain in a simple blog post. Third one is very much like the second one and is probably much more familiar to many people. It’s The Man in the Arena from Teddy Roosevelt. Regardless of his history and controversies from his lifetime, there is a measure of truth to his words. I’ll let you choose to look it up so that I can move right into the fourth one from Bruce Lee. I find his essay The Passionate State of Mind to be a wonderful window into the minds and souls of individuals. Self-awareness, ego, pride, self-worth. How we see and value ourselves as compared to others. Well, I keep articles bookmarked for both of these sources of inspiration so that at any given time, if I feel the need to, I can refer back to them. I would encourage you all to look into them and see how they resonate with you.

What Olympic sports I like

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What Olympic sports do you enjoy watching the most?
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My family used to watch the Olympics, both Summer and Winter, a lot when I was younger. As a kid I wasn’t all the interested and it was just kind of something that was on. We would naturally hope that the athletes from the USA would do well, but I never cared much.

As an adult, I still don’t care much, but I have a much deeper understanding and respect for the athletes. The things they do for training, the lifestyles they have to lead, just to be able to perform at the “Olympic” level is fascinating and also a little sad sometimes. So, for the events/sports that I do end up watching, I can appreciate the action better and actually feel somewhat invested. That being said, I don’t typically watch a lot of the Summer games (and there are a LOT of events for the Summer Olympics.) I much more prefer watching the Winter games, especially the ice related ones.

I did a little bit of skateboarding and snowboarding (briefly) as a kid, so I naturally gravitate towards those events for the Olympics, but I’ve grown to enjoy most of the ice-based sports for the Winter games, which means I watch a substantial portion of the events as compared to the Summer games. The Summer games I enjoy, outside of the skateboarding and BMX events (which go hand in hand for me as part of the “extreme sports” grouping I grew up with), are typically the martial arts ones. On occasion I do enjoy seeing the archery and fencing events, but they aren’t top of the list.

A final note on all of this, though, is that despite me saying I enjoy these events I’m not a big sports guy to begin with, so it should go without saying that I don’t follow the teams or individual athletes and have no vested interest in their practice, progress, and success. I just watch whenever I feel like it (when the games are on, of course.)

Streaming takes a lot

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What’s something most people don’t understand?
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I feel like the vast majority of people who see people posting dumb shit on social media and YouTube don’t fully understand the effort that can go into content creation.

Now, this also includes the people who decide to post that dumb shit, because a lot of them start off with the mentality “oh that’s easy, I can do that too, and I’ll make millions!” That’s not the case. At all. Granted, the most popular people on social media had to start somewhere but there is also the element of luck to consider.

Putting luck aside, the effort that the SUCCESSFUL people on social media and streaming platforms put in is incredible and varies depending on the style of content they’re choosing to create. In my case I can at least talk about streaming since I did that off and on for years as a hobby.

Most people don’t understand the amount of time and effort that gets invested into streaming. You might think it’s as easy as pushing a button to stream to the world and just sit at your desk playing games for a few hours, but there is much more to it than that. Especially if you have any intent to turn it into a “career” of some kind. You need the right equipment/software and know how to use it. You need to understand the target audience. What games do you like? What games do THEY like? What is your style of game play and audience interaction? Are you really good at a particular game, or are you clever/witty/funny? What’s the best time to stream at and can it fit into your schedule? How are you reaching your target audience to let them know you’re live? Are you streaming often enough? Are you limiting yourself to just streaming on a single platform or are you branching out somehow? What are the current trends in gaming? How do you get ahead of everyone and not feel like you’re riding on the coattails of big streamers who are nearing the end of their time interested in a game or genre? Boiling it all down into a singular question “How do you go from pushing the Live button to making it into a career?”

More and more questions your should be asking yourself the further you go down that rabbit hole. You can’t just record yourself doing something silly or dumb and expect to be famous the next day. People who experience that are incredibly lucky, and chances are it’s a flash in the pan kind of moment and it’ll never happen again. You can increase your odds of success by answering the questions I asked above and putting in the effort, but even then, it isn’t a guarantee.

If you want to break it down into something quantifiable like making a living then you can look into the numbers that are out there, but I can at least provide a hypothetical example for you to chew on.

on Twitch a Tier 1 sub costs a user US$4.99 before taxes. The streamer receives a 50% cut of that. Using nice even numbers that puts it US$2.50. If you were lucky enough to live in a part of the country where the cost of living was cheap, and you had no debts, and you could live off US$50,000 per year, what does that equate to in Twitch subs? That’s 20,000 subs. I don’t have the actual Follower to Subscriber conversion percentages at hand as I’m writing this, but if you were fortunate enough to have 20% of your followers convert to subs, you would need 100,000 followers on Twitch. Let me share a tweet with you all to offer some perspective. CommanderRoot shares a lot of fascinating statistics, and this tweet of theirs from December of 2020 likely still holds some truth to it in 2024. https://x.com/CommanderRoot/status/1336488690986717184

By the end of 2020 less than 4,000 streamers on the entire Twitch platform had greater than 100,000 followers. There are roughly 7,000,000 streamers on Twitch today in 2024, so assuming the numbers haven’t changed drastically between then and now we can do some more math. Using nice even numbers, if my math is right, that means approximately 0.06% of streamers on the entire platform meet the completely hypothetical criteria I set before. (Personally, I’d say the criteria are very optimistic compared to whatever the real numbers are.)

This is why I say most people don’t understand the effort that goes into streaming. If you want this to be a career and you have nothing else going for you, if you want to keep trying, then maybe someday you’ll get up there, but it’s going to take a TREMENDOUS amount of time and effort that you’re not going to get back, and this is all just in streaming on Twitch. At the core of all of this, you can figure out the basic idea and apply it to other forms of content creation, like writing. Follow the questions, follow the numbers, get your answer. No matter what you’re doing, do you understand it enough to know where to aim yourself?

A day off

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Some days I see the daily writing prompt and just don’t feel like I’m going to have a solid answer, no matter how much time I take to think it through. So, rather than struggle to write it out I’ll just take a day off to let my brain rest.

If you feel like this, take a day off. We can’t always be “on” day after day. That’s how we experience burnout.

Affirmations and Coping

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What strategies do you use to cope with negative feelings?
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Disclaimer: I am not a mental health professional, nor a professional of any medical field at all, so these thoughts are my own. Right, wrong, or indifferent.

Once again, I was up late enough to see this prompt at the turn of midnight giving myself time to think and digest how I wanted to respond. I put my phone aside, laid my head down on my pillow, and started running through potential openers and content.

The entire workday later, I have forgotten every word I thought up which means I get to stare at my monitor, falling in and out of my usual daydream like daze, as I try to start over.

Emotions, and positive/negative feelings are complicated and complex. No matter how we try to dissect and understand them, boiling them down to singular words to describe our feelings in as simple a form as possible, there is always the underlying complex nature of emotions. How we respond to them, handle and control them, will vary from person to person based on personal life experiences.

I’m not going to delve too deeply into this subject, but I wanted to at least address the fact that I have different measures for handling different emotions and negative feelings.

Anger: I try not to let things get to me. I do not anger easily, and as I’ve gotten older (and hopefully wiser) I have reached a point where it is really difficult to anger me. Someone makes a mistake that directly impacts me, hurting or setting me back, and instead of flying off the handle I take a moment to recognize as many factors as possible that led to current situation. I recognize that dropping everything to get angry, to expend that kind of energy, doesn’t fix things and only serves to hinder me. That being said, if someone REALLY crosses a line, to the point of hurting and outright disrespecting me, my family and friends, I can and will let the anger rise a little bit because sometimes I need to get a point across to prevent that line being crossed again.

Frustration and Helplessness: I’ve decided to lump these two together because I feel they go hand in hand. I try not to let myself fall into situations that could lead to frustrating outcomes by recognizing my limits and the risks involved. Preemptive measures, if you will, learned and earned through life. Although I am not very religious I do have a response for those times when preemptive measures fail, and that is the Serenity Prayer. You don’t need to be incredibly devout to recognize the simplistic power of an affirmation built on the Serenity Prayer. If you don’t know the Serenity Prayer, here you go. “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can, and Wisdom to know the difference.” I do not let myself get frustrated and feel helpless when things don’t work out or something fails. I take a step back to recognize that there may have just been something I couldn’t control, and move forward by reminding myself of the intent of that prayer.

I’m realizing that I could probably go on and on, and this post would become a self-help book, so I’ll leave it there because I feel like those are the most prominent negative feelings I usually have to deal with. I know I could share about things like sadness and depression, hate and fear, but a lot of times those are all handled under similar measures to anger, frustration, and helplessness. I feel those things, I recognize what caused them, and find a way to pull myself out of them so that I don’t do something stupid. I always want to be moving forward, and hopefully someone who stumbles across this post can find something that helps them move forward as well.

The personal budget

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Write about your approach to budgeting.
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On the whole, my budgeting sucks, simple as that, but I still have some sort of method to follow.

To start with, I have a spreadsheet that I put all my numbers into for tracking, and I keep it up to date almost daily. In this age of technology, it’s super easy to do with my phone. I can access my bank, credit cards, Paypal, Venmo, etc. so that I can keep tabs on any new transactions. Then I also have access to my spreadsheet through my phone, so it’s just as easy to bounce between the apps.

Each bill or monthly charge is tracked as a line item, and I keep track of each of their relative due dates next to them. Those are the first two columns, and I freeze them in place for scrolling for the next part. The rest of the columns have the Pay Dates for the year and the anticipated amount earned on that check. Then I go through each bill and add the amount due for each pay check that will be closest in date before the bill is due. Everything gets calculated at the bottom, and I have line items for Food/Groceries, Gas, and Savings. Those last three are more fluid because there will be weeks I don’t need to drive as much, or I have extra grocery money because I didn’t need to spend extra on something like bulk laundry detergent. This is where I say my budgeting sucks. Because I don’t do a good job with having the extra money that I don’t ultimately put into savings. I take out cash for the food and gas to try and limit myself, but I will sometimes go over or find myself in a situation where I need to pay for something that I can’t use cash for, so it ends up on the credit card (because the bank account would overdraw otherwise.)

There you go. My brief budget rundown.

Loss of interest in a hobby

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Are there any activities or hobbies you’ve outgrown or lost interest in over time?
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Thankfully the prompt is automatically at the top of the post or else I would feel the need to start with “Nobody panic, I’m not losing interest in a CURRENT hobby.”

Now, to be honest, I don’t have an exact answer because I’m sure I’ve forgotten some things, but yes there are definitely activities I’ve grown out of over the years. As a kid, I used to love riding my bike all over the place, playing with LEGOs for hours, probably some other things that kids typically lose interest in as they get older. Moving the clock forward to college, there used to be more alcohol in my life. More parties with friends. Not anymore, though, because I had a great (negative) role model about alcohol and I came to realize that I didn’t like the way it made me feel. All of those things are activities or hobbies I outgrew or lost interest in, although I really should consider getting a bicycle again and just riding the bike trail that loops around my city.

Funny enough, there is one hobby that I “outgrew” that ended up coming back. Pokémon cards. Unfortunately, when you’re a kid you don’t have a disposable income, so I couldn’t feed that cardboard crack addiction of buying booster packs. I didn’t come back to the game until more than 20 years later when my niece and nephews started to get into it. I don’t actively buy packs for that game these days, so I guess I still sort of outgrew it, however I do collect and play Magic: The Gathering instead so I would say I came back to the hobby eventually. Just in a different way.

It’s interesting how life changes like that.

Too many inventions too quickly

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The most important invention in your lifetime is…
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It’s hard to pick an invention from “my lifetime” when I don’t even know what was truly and originally invented IN my lifetime.

When I first started to write out my answer for today’s prompt I had settled on Wireless Technology, but the more I thought about it there are certain elements of “wireless” that are older than any person still living today. So, I stopped writing about it, deleted everything and took a break.

Now, I’m sitting down several hours later to think about it and I realized that technology has advanced so quickly and confidentially that I don’t know what to pick.

I think, just for the sake of putting SOMETHING out there, I’ll stick to an abbreviated version of what I had thought about before regarding wireless technology.

Most people take for granted what is considered “wireless” because they don’t think about them, or because the technology is obsolete and no longer in use. Like TV remotes. Still in use, but people these days probably forgot they existed (until I mentioned them just now) because the vast majority of people probably don’t need them anymore! So, although the TV remote might not have been invented in the last 35 years, wireless technology has continued to evolve. The electromagnetic spectrum, which includes the infrared light TV remotes use (even Nintendo’s Game Boy Color had IR sensors), is the backbone of all wireless communication, and we harness it in so many ways. Between that and the invention of The Internet, they have drastically altered the world we live in today. Broadband and shortwave radio eventually led to Bluetooth technology which is probably the most relevant for today’s prompt because it was invented in my lifetime (but I didn’t want to settle with just Bluetooth because it’s a subset of the wider and more important idea.)

Anyways, this is all just my opinion, so whatever. Wireless Technology is the most important invention of multiple lifetimes.

Office life and how much time we actually devote to work

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Digging through my drafts, I found a post I had started working on almost three years ago (oops…) and it stuck out to me as something I really wanted to talk about again. That post was about how many hours people actually devote to work in a day.

The premise behind that post came from a team meeting at work. At the time that I had started drafting that post there was an external non-profit type of organization that independently hosted monthly sessions for business professionals and leaders. Several people from my department would attend regularly and bring back notes to share during team and department meetings so that way even those who couldn’t attend weren’t totally missing out. At this point I’d like to remind you that 2020 was a bad year. COVID controlled our lives for most of that year, and I was “lucky” to be working remote, which I’ll circle back to shortly. Anyways, going out of the house and attending events was not encouraged but by November of that year things had loosened up here.

Anyways, I never attended any of those sessions. So I had to take what I could get from my coworkers. Over Teams and WebEx meetings. It was a great time.

So, with the background handled, circling back to the original topic. How many hours DO you devote to work? On the daily? Weekly?

The talking points and discussion materials provided at that session covered things that I knew in the back of my mind and I had previously brought up in personal discussions with friends and family. The subject wasn’t just about time in the office or at your desk. They covered things like travel time/commutes, morning and evening routines, meal prepping for lunches (if that’s your thing.)

When they talked about all of this, it brought to mind that people working a full time job will actually devote more time than they think they do simply because there are things that happen outside of work hours that we do for the purpose of supporting our work-life balance. We devote more time to work at the cost of time devoted to our personal lives.

Now, as to why I wanted to come back to this drafted topic. That’s because three years ago when I first started that draft, everyone at work was required to go remote and temporarily reduce hours by 40%. Starting back then, my work-life balance was shot. I spent so much time at home that the days blurred together. I didn’t, and to this day still don’t, have a separate space for me to work from when I have to work from home. It felt like I was devoted to work so much more, even though there were times I did so much less even if not by choice. I could get away with condensing my usual activities and routines because I wasn’t commuting. I was steps away from the kitchen and could cook lunch. I could take five minutes to go start a load of laundry.

Things have changed since then, and I’m more less back to the usual work routines I had pre-COVID. No more blurred lines. Work-life balance mostly restored. I have the option to work remote should I need or choose to, but I have otherwise gone back to the office full time because for me it provides a nice separation of work and my personal life.

The way things should be. At least, that’s how it is for me. What about you?